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Number 1 in the AFC East and one of only 4 (I think) teams still undefeated in the league. Keep kicking butt all over the nation boys...I am cheering you on!

Two-a-days

Getting back into a desirable shape has it's ups and downs. One thing I have noticed recently is that I have hit the dreaded "plateau". Thirty-five pounds are gone and not forgotten...but now I am stuck...right...here. As a result I decided to add Spinning classes back into my routine. That means that in addition to my regular morning workout, I added a Spinning class 2 nights out of the week. The first one last Thursday went really well. Then my alarm went off the next morning at 6:00am.
"Exhausted" is the understatement of the decade. It felt as if I had been dragged behind a bus and left for dead. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to physically do...attempt to get out of bed on 9/19/08. The pain in my crotch (excuse me if you will) was an entirely different experience altogether. I got wise to that and purchased a gel seat before yesterday's class. All I can say is "Thank you Jesus, for the person who invented those." I actually enjoyed the class and had ZERO trouble getting up this morning. The side effect is that I have noticed more changes in my body...yeah!
Side notes (In random order) -

• Chemistry class is going well. I think I aced the first test if he curves it, and if he doesn't, well, my score is none of your business. I am acing the lab.
• Why do people breathe heavily into the phone? Can't they hear the wind they are making on their end of the phone? I spent 30 minutes with the I.T. guy from payroll yesterday and it sounded like he was speaking to me from the Dania Beach pier. Pull the microphone away from your nose and face please.
• I am SO excited for the holidays! (Yep, already...I am)

Classic

I checked out this church last week and they played the "updated video" version of David and Goliath before the message and it reminded me of all the crazy spoofs the guys (Adrian and Jon E.) used to do at CRCC. I almost fell out of my seat so I had to share the love...

Weighing in...

I thought about how I wanted to title this blog entry and I kept getting stuck on "losing weight". I really despise that term. Every time the scale goes down 1 lb, I don't ever want to find that pound again. Historically and pathetically enough, I always seemed to find those lost pounds...many, many, many times over.
Well, I think that this time has been different. Getting into shape has never really been the issue for me. I could do it very easily, but, I would always find myself creeping back up that dreaded scale again. It was like an "all or nothing" ON/OFF switch that I would flip depending on how desperate I was at the time to either slim down or pig out.
Through this latest adventure (and what a ride it has been), I knew that I had to look at myself from the complete opposite angle...the inside. What makes an "all or nothing" person when it comes to food? The age old question. Each day I think I am getting closer to answering that question, although I know that only God holds the ultimate and complete answer. I have been wracking my brain since I realized I had a weight issue to answer that question and here I am 15 years later without THE answer. Since I am FAR from perfect this side of heaven, I know that will not 'arrive' if you will, until I pull up to the pearly gates.
Five months ago I was absolutely and unequivocally miserable. Climbing ever steadily UP and UP and almost completely away on the scale, losing a little piece of me along the way. I became almost unrecognizable to myself, isolating myself from the people, and feelings, and things I love. That seems like so long ago and so far away now. I pray that I do not forget the person I used to be because I don't want to go back to her. She was sad and angry and self-pitying...my own worst nightmare of me.
Today is a much better day and these are much brighter times. I can shop at Express now, albeit only in their tops, but the pants will come in due time. I enjoy getting dressed up for work, Publix, school, church. I look forward to going out again and seeing my friends. I don't spend all my hours obsessing over food and how bad I look.
I have gotten rid of 35 pounds to date. I weigh myself much less than I used to. I still enjoy every single thing I love to eat. I exercise 5 times a week. I like to look at myself in the mirror again and I am starting to stand up straighter.

Bring on the holidays...